edunph (edunph): Not that I needed it, being so honest, trusting, and devoted at heart, but I was curious what it would feel like. In life we take risks and some will inevitably cause pain. That being said, I wasn't even sure if it would hit me and then BAM [Bomb] [huge explosion mind you] When I caught my first glimpse it sent me through all then the events that lead up to the situation I put myself in. Not all bad, again, because I like my trusting and devoted nature. But still, definitely not a world I ever want to see again. That being said, the event was insightful and caused a fair amount of introspection ;) The extremely trusting, devoted, and sacrificial nature, that I have grown to love about myself and brought me all these great things that I take for granted; for a brief moment I saw these qualities as huge weaknesses that need to be changed. Thoughts raced through my head, could I ever trust or love that much again? The answer is Yes. Of course. But in the future I need to be more careful because with where I want to go in life the stakes are only going to get higher and more people involved. But why would I set myself up for such a self defeating event in the first place? I think the fact that I would attempt to force myself to see the negative implications of my actions bodes well for the future. I realize now I still have a lot to grow if I want to be as successful as I think I will be. With a bit of help, [Face Blowing A Kiss], I believe I taught myself a valuable lesson. Right now, taking chances for someone else that would allow for a negative business outcome only directly affects myself as I see it, but in the future there could be a lot more at stake. Our friends and family, the connections we have that make us who we are, shouldn't be sacrificed without great thought. I now know I have a lot to grow. But enough sadistic actions against self for today. Time for a dinner with the extended family. [Smiling Face with Open Mouth and Smiling Eyes]

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Not that I needed it, being so honest, trusting, and devoted at heart, but I was curious what it would feel like. In life we take risks and some will inevitably cause pain.

That being said, I wasn't even sure if it would hit me and then BAM [huge explosion mind you] When I caught my first glimpse it sent me through all then the events that lead up to the situation I put myself in.

Not all bad, again, because I like my trusting and devoted nature. But still, definitely not a world I ever want to see again. That being said, the event was insightful and caused a fair amount of introspection ;)

The extremely trusting, devoted, and sacrificial nature, that I have grown to love about myself and brought me all these great things that I take for granted; for a brief moment I saw these qualities as huge weaknesses that need to be changed.

Thoughts raced through my head, could I ever trust or love that much again? The answer is Yes. Of course. But in the future I need to be more careful because with where I want to go in life the stakes are only going to get higher and more people involved.

But why would I set myself up for such a self defeating event in the first place? I think the fact that I would attempt to force myself to see the negative implications of my actions bodes well for the future.

I realize now I still have a lot to grow if I want to be as successful as I think I will be. With a bit of help, , I believe I taught myself a valuable lesson.

Right now, taking chances for someone else that would allow for a negative business outcome only directly affects myself as I see it, but in the future there could be a lot more at stake.

Our friends and family, the connections we have that make us who we are, shouldn't be sacrificed without great thought. I now know I have a lot to grow. But enough sadistic actions against self for today. Time for a dinner with the extended family.

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